… everything will go alright, somebody wrote me a day ago and I believe that: That at the end all is falling in place. But I also know that when you think all is falling in place, your world will be first thorn apart before you can put it together. Transition is such a moment – you plan and you imagine and you envisage and you have joy to see yourself somewhere new – and you suddenly realise that there is still a lot to do before you get even close to your wish or what you saw as your destiny. Transition is also an emotional rollercoaster and the people around you tend to try to influence the outcome. Why? Because many people think they know what is good for you, or what path you have to go or they are anxious that you will lose track if you not do this or that.
HIV and AIDS as portfolio is a big task ahead and tonight, short before midnight, I am not sure anymore where it will lead me. There are so many possibilities how one can go about it, so many ways to tackle it. There are so many needs which cry out for assistance and help.
Well, I will certainly stay with HOPE Cape Town, even if I am not sure in which capacity. But I will also develop and foster the project of POZ, dealing with the pastoral work with priests and religious living with the virus. The partnership with Joachim Franz and his team “be your own hero e.V.” will definitely play a bigger role in my life and the exhibition 2010 @ the Charite might be another pillar. The partnership between Bavaria and the Western Cape needs also some input – and I can see all this interconnected and to be mutual beneficial. But I am not sure whether this vision is shared by everybody.
It always needs courage to grasp a vision and to slowly but surely make it a reality. But I also know that I cannot do it alone. Standing on the doorstep of a new chapter of my life, I am thrilled to know whether I find people being able to walk side by side with me.
Being in transition also means that the interaction between people changes. In our world, the status of a person, the role he or she is playing is an important one. People value people because they are in a certain position, people connect with people out of that purpose. Sometimes this leads to a good friendship which lasts forever, but often, connections are lost because positions are lost. The interconnection between people is a very interesting field of studies.
Tonight, I feel the uncertainty of tomorrow and the days to follow. Transition takes away the self-assurance and makes one vulnerable. But I still believe: …. all will go alright..
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